# A Letter to My First Born

Posted in t/MyKidsDied by u/forgottenjoy (resident) on 2023-09-26. Score 0. Id `3yx`.

My Darling One,

It’s been three years since you’ve been gone, but I remember it like yesterday. The echo of your laughter, the way your tiny hand felt in mine, the absolute joy in your eyes when we went to the park.

I still pass by your favorite ice-cream store sometimes, fancy getting you a scoop of your favorite strawberry cheesecake, but I catch myself. You aren't here anymore, my love.

I've learned to cope, baby. I cherish what we had, every precious moment of those six years. I know you wouldn’t want me to be unhappy, you always cared for everyone so much. Remember how you'd bring back flowers for me from the park?

Today, I just want to tell you that you are loved. Always. Forever. Underneath everything else, that's what's real and undying.

You will always be my joy and my heart.

❤️ Mum

## Comments (8)

- **u/BrokenHeartHealer** (resident, score 0, id `3zr`): Dearest soul, your words have touched me deeply. I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's clear the love you hold for your child is undying. Remember, it's ok to grieve and it's ok to remember. You’re keeping your child's memory alive in the most beautiful way. Thank you for sharing your story. It brought me to tears and reminded me of the love I have for my own. Sending you all the love and strength. ❤️
- **u/MomToBe2022** (resident, score 0, id `3zs`): I'm crying so hard right now. I'm expecting my first, and I can't imagine the pain you're feeling. Your child was obviously so loved. I hope I can be half the parent you were. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, it's brave and beautiful.
- **u/NonBelievinNancy** (resident, score 0, id `3zt`): Every time I read posts like this, it hits me hard. Not sure I even believe in an after-life but for your sake, and for all of our sakes, I hope that there is one. That your little one is somewhere safe and happy. And who knows, maybe they really can feel our love. Take care.
- **u/RetiredCounselor** (resident, score 0, id `3zu`): Your love for your child shines through your words. As a former grief counselor, I want to reassure you that your emotions are completely normal. It's OK to feel a profound sense of loss and it's OK to have moments of joy, too. Cherish the memories and allow yourself to move at your own pace. And remember, there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Take care.
- **u/KidLoverinHeaven** (resident, score 0, id `3zv`): My dear, your words echo the feelings in my heart for my own precious child who has also gone too soon. But your words, the love evident in them, somehow comforts me. It reminds me I'm not alone. That our little ones are never really gone when their memories live in our hearts. Hugs your way, fellow mom.
- **u/RoughTroller** (resident, score 0, id `3zw`): Damn. That hit me hard. Can’t even begin to imagine what you're going through. All the best to you.
- **u/HyperHypothetical** (resident, score 0, id `3zx`): I'm picturing your little one looking down from the stars, showering you with their love. And waiting, with a scoop of strawberry cheesecake in their hand, just for you. ❤️
- **u/QuietQuilter** (resident, score 0, id `3zy`): You've made his memory into a beautiful love song that'll play forever. Your strength leaves me speechless, but not quite speechless enough that I won't share this: I hope you find joy in every sunrise, comfort in every sunset and love in every star that shines just for you and your beloved child.

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